Stay Hungry! Stay Awake?

4:06 AM! Back from the trip to loo and my mobile screen flashed the time. These mobiles are too smart sometimes. My grandmother had a habit of checking time at midnight every now and then, definitely I haven’t inherited it though and even sometimes she confirms by stirring us. But I have a practice of keeping phones next to me on bed due to million dollar business I run: P. Damn! I am trying to get rid of this.

4:10! Why the hell I could not sleep. It is still half-morning or half-night or whatever and I have half to cover.

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Nothings bothering me actually. Is there any tension? I swear no single thing. Office? Did i make any wrong decision? Come on. Touch wood, I am privileged and most of the crucial decision I make on a daily basis is whether I should go to office or work from home J Tension? I should panic or get tense when something goes wrong and it should go wrong if I do something and there is nothing.. Ok its official. I am busy actually but no tensions J

Why is it pouring since night? Are all the 9 goddesses coming down to Bengaluru and blessing us on the occasion of navaratri. Actually good idea they should do it more often, but do they carry umbrellas. Hmmm. Bengaluru is loved for its weather and truly it’s one of the beautiful city and close to heart for many like me.

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4:26! Mannn!! Left, Right or roof … no signs.. Somethings seriously stuck. It’s very difficult to calm your mind and at this time. Ufff. Minds are disturbed or constantly in thinking mode only when there is some unsorted things or something continuously haunting you. And imagine if your heart also joins this… you are a dead man.

Did Madhav Jha finds Riya Somani? What the fcuk? That’s why study says should not read books at night which may result in insomnia. Yes he finds her. Happy ending because we Indians love happy endings. Baddi maga!! Have you noticed he does all these, successful and married before he turns 27 or so? Which comprises of missing her 2 times each with a span of 2 years or more, meeting Bill Gates and getting a grant for his school and you know kids are always god’s gift. And our poor guys roam around a year first to get girl’s attention and second year prepares to propose her and before they do it they end up in bar falling in love but with bottles. So definitely Madhav Jha isn’t a quitter but are all we losers or what? How mean? For God’s sake sleep man. It’s just a desolate fiction of Mr Chetan Bhagat, a good story teller rather a writer.

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4:34! Please sleep ya. You are getting dairy circle, Oops! dark circles. You never know when your subconscious interpret, it is so conscious at this past night also. I still miss my office at dairy circle. Whatta days!!!

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What’s with WhatsApp then? 
What what’s with WhatsApp? What do you mean? Yeah it’s good. People use it. 
And me? 
I am not using it so what..I still exists right. Friends can still call me or text me. It doesn’t mean I have vanished. But why are you not using. It’s my wish. Is that it? Yes of course. Are you sure? Yes you can lock it either. You know I don’t like mundane tasks and routines and it was taking my maximum time so thought of ditching it. I was going through a pathetic relationship with WhatsApp, it was good in the beginning but it’s over now. I broke up. It was hard to digest but I have to move on. Now I am totally free. In fact I completed reading 2 novels, daily newspapers, thought full progressions right?. And really I don’t find it useful apart from connecting with friends easily. After all who cares?

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So fine you have covered all the parts right? Can we sleep now, its 4:55.

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One last. You might hate it. 
No last no first. And since when it has become a last topic. 
Ohh so got that topic. 
Holy shit!! We are not discussing this, I warn we are not even touching that. 
Oh really.. Escapist!!. 

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5:30 #PEACE.. A big sigh ....Ahh whats this sound ....Noooo Not now L

My stomach started growling, in fact it is from last one hour and I could not hear it because of all these fuss. Noooo I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to hit the kitchen, no opening fridge at all. Wait a minute!! Was this the reason for not getting sleep or being restless so far… and getting into all these stupid subjects and disturbing completely? Entire stupidity and I was trapped

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7:00 AM. I am at SLV Upachar J My new destination for early breakfasts at layout ;)

What the Hell!!!

You know I always dreamt of carrying a water bottle in the backpack and travel in my bike, though I never did that but it ended up carrying my urine samples to these labs :)

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Most crowded places in bengaluru are the hospitals (and of course hotels too), world of tears, sorrow, distress, suffering … except the happy faces of doctors (never try to observe I mean its inside). I thought it might take whole day to get consulted considering these ugly mourning depressed faces around. But receptionists (desperate looking for a new bakra) don’t make you feel; instead they grab your attention and treat like the guest asking for a room in the five star hotels.

“I would like to consult an urologists and what time ...” before I stop “sure sir. Please pay Rs 225 in the next queue and be seated, we will call you” she replied gracefully by picking up a receiver (we always see a no horn signal from traffic police near the hospitals but inside this hospital was like a telephone exchange the phone ringing so loud, thank god she received it) saying ‘__hospitals how can I help you’. What the hell!! She is not even helping a guy standing in front of her and at least not bothered of my words moreover my problem but she wanted to help an invisible caller on the other side. I could not argue much because of her gracefulness and there was another bakra behind me.

The queue was so big like an advance booking for a new super hit movie (god knows how many of them are booking their room in advance). Finally it’s my turn and paid 225 as told and the girl sorry lady was informative than the first one. She told me the process like you will be having an initial checkup and pre-consultation with junior doctor and then you are allowed to consult the doctor. Thank god my 225 is worth paying now.

My name was called and asked to check my weight in the digital machine. I have become a little overweight J after not only inventing but visiting some historic and non historic hotels, but my BP was normal (obviously as there is not much beauty to raise my inner instinct).

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Again told to wait for pre-consultation. I don’t understand most of all the faces as described are suffering and in pain on top of that these dabba hospitals in the visiting area showing Discovery, Nat geo channels tiger hunting deer like doctor hunting for patients hahaha … PJ J, related episodes in their TVs. Damn it!!! They charge so much can easily show MTV, channel V or our Udaya 2. At least people will be happier till they see their bills. No other go even I started watching those.

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‘6 AM are they joking?’ I never woke up so early in last few months and my practices have become so bad missing the sun raises, may be I tried around that during my morning show ;) to the new movie releases and here for the admitting to the hospital, NO WAY. Doctor wanted me to admit for 2 days as they could not able to conclude anything from my previous tests.

It was already 6 my brother was all set to take me and I was delaying purposefully, of course for the obvious reason. 7.15 We left smiling to my mom. It was altogether a different scene in the hospital than my previous visits as it is early in the morning and only in-patients and new admissions were seen. Sad, I was admitted without any delays, labeled the room ‘102 Mr. Kumar (u)’. What the hell, who wants to wear this dirty gown, I protested till the doctors arrive, a routine visit to all the in-patients. ‘How are you?’ one of the doctor said, don’t you know actually I should ask this question to you ‘how am I?’ no but I just said I am fine. He explained me what are the procedures and when I will be taken to OT (It may sound like horrifying if I expand so let’s keep it short). I smiled half heartedly. I was put into drip as I was told not to eat anything from morning (see I hate this when somebody try to avoid my food habits). So boring in the hospital and not so interesting nurses also (I feel nurse is an old tradition name for that profession but I don’t want to call them sisters :P) and even more worse was the clock straight opposite to me, hell!!. I keep on asking ‘mera number kab ayega’. At exactly 2 a stretcher came inside my room a kind of relief and fears other side.

My stretcher was stopped at the border (a space between the OT and other wards) and OT attendants took my charge. Finally saw beautiful eyes by side of me (yes they are all wearing masks. I think this is the basic strategy of OT that they should not reveal their faces) a lady attendant, just seeing her eyes I decided she is beautiful but she was. Now exactly inside the OT (2 big 63 LEDs light one with camera; looks were similar to in the movies but they were not used for me), the time I waited for to get rid off as soon as possible.

They started preparing for my so called operation and then entered anesthesia doctor. I believe one of the greatest wonders in medicine is anesthesia, God!! What an invention without that who will bear all these pain for whatever disease/operation. In other words it’s a kind of doctor’s confidence to experiment with any weapons they like. I was given spinal anesthesia for the lower part of my body and my upper part was already anesthetic as she was standing left of my side J. Points to remember here is they put a curtain on my abdomen to avoid me watching the doctor using his powerful hardware equipments (including camera) but I was more interested in the software a monitor right top of my head where the doctor was using it as a reference in recognizing my organs inside, a more sophisticated test was done in 15-20 mins, sent back to my 102 and discharged the next day.

वोह

इंतज़ार के लम्हे ख़तम होरही है
इंतज़ार के लम्हे ख़तम होरही है

साला मेरी उम्र भी बड रही है


मिल नहीं रही है वोह
मिल नहीं रही है वोह

पूछो मत कौन
मिलने के बाद बोलता हूँ जाओ

--- अरुण

साथ

साथ बिताये जो हर पल तुम्हारे
याद करके अब उन लम्हों को,
आती है हलकी सी मुस्कान होटों पे हमारे.

तनहा जब हम खुद को पाते है,
दो चार बातें आपसे ही कर लेते है..
सोचेंगे आप ये कैसे मुमकिन है,
दिल में बस जाये कोई तो कुछ भी पोस्सिब्ले है ;)

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